In high school, we only had to take PE one semester. That was my spring freshman semester and we barely had to do anything. Most days we "dressed out" into gym-ish clothes and then sat and gabbed about everything. It was good times for a new girl who had just moved to a new state. It was bad times for starting a legacy of sedentary lifestyle.
Towards the end of the year, our PE teacher told us that the US was doing some survey and thus he needed everybody's height and weight. The powers that be wanted to track heights and weights of all students blah blah blah. So he rigged up a scale to where the only people who could see the numbers was the person on the scale and him.
I really appreciated that he did that. I already knew I was bigger than most of my classmates, but being 15 is hard and I would have been mortified if any of my classmates knew exactly how much I weighed.
I stepped onto the scale and the number flashed in red squared letters right back at me: 190. I weighed 190 pounds my freshman year of high school. And then my PE teacher said to me, quietly so no one else could hear, "You carry your weight really well."
Dumbly, I'm sure I nodded back at him and then went to sit down, glad the whole ordeal was over with.
In the back of my mind, I knew I ran over his words for days though. Was that a compliment? Was that an insult? Did that mean I was too fat? Did that mean that I don't look as fat as I really am?
Years later, this moment came to me last night while lying in bed, wishing I could just instantly drop 5 more pounds overnight.
I think the moral of this story is, even though I may weight a lot, I can still look good and feel good about myself as I continue life's journey. I'm working my way to a better weight and I can be amazing while doing it.
Keep up the good work lads and ladies!
Showing posts with label diet musings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label diet musings. Show all posts
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
Monday, July 18, 2011
Fast and Furious
Just a quick update.
I spent last week at Disneyworld. While I didn't do any workouts besides walking around the parks (and walk we did!), I was kind of afraid that I would gain weight while on vacation. We ate quite a few meals at the nicer restaurants and I finished my food almost every time. I also have to mention, even with all the walking, my feet never got sore. Score!
Well I got home Saturday night and promptly hopped up onto the scale, 208.4. Sunday morning when I woke up I was 206.6. That means, ladies and gentleman, that according to the BMI scale, I am NO LONGER obese!!! This also means I've lost over 20 pounds since starting this blog!
I feel fabulous about it! C even mentioned as I walked in the door getting home that I looked awesome :)
I even got a tan on vakay. I, personally, think I'm starting to look pretty nice. And I feel awesome about it too.
Accomplishing this goal, it just goes to show that I CAN do it! All through high school and the last couple years, I've been in the mindset that I'm fat and it's okay and I look nice enough. Even though when things don't go right and I never have any romantic interests, my first thought is always, it's cause I'm fat. I always tend to scan the group I'm with and think, wow I'm the fattest one here.
And finally I'm taking charge and showing myself and everybody else that I can change my life and diet and exercise habits and be the me that I've always wanted to!
Wow this was meant to be a quick update but I kind of rambled off. I'm just soo happy and pleased with myself! Now that I know that I CAN do this, it just makes me even more jazzed up to keep going and get down to a healthy and good weight for me (not to mention a sexy one!).
I spent last week at Disneyworld. While I didn't do any workouts besides walking around the parks (and walk we did!), I was kind of afraid that I would gain weight while on vacation. We ate quite a few meals at the nicer restaurants and I finished my food almost every time. I also have to mention, even with all the walking, my feet never got sore. Score!
Well I got home Saturday night and promptly hopped up onto the scale, 208.4. Sunday morning when I woke up I was 206.6. That means, ladies and gentleman, that according to the BMI scale, I am NO LONGER obese!!! This also means I've lost over 20 pounds since starting this blog!
I feel fabulous about it! C even mentioned as I walked in the door getting home that I looked awesome :)
I even got a tan on vakay. I, personally, think I'm starting to look pretty nice. And I feel awesome about it too.
Accomplishing this goal, it just goes to show that I CAN do it! All through high school and the last couple years, I've been in the mindset that I'm fat and it's okay and I look nice enough. Even though when things don't go right and I never have any romantic interests, my first thought is always, it's cause I'm fat. I always tend to scan the group I'm with and think, wow I'm the fattest one here.
And finally I'm taking charge and showing myself and everybody else that I can change my life and diet and exercise habits and be the me that I've always wanted to!
Wow this was meant to be a quick update but I kind of rambled off. I'm just soo happy and pleased with myself! Now that I know that I CAN do this, it just makes me even more jazzed up to keep going and get down to a healthy and good weight for me (not to mention a sexy one!).
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Happy thoughts
Have I mentioned I ran 1/4th of a mile straight today? I couldn't even do that in Jr high when we were forced to "run" a mile once a week. :)
Also, did I mention I was down to 213 this (Saturday) morning?
Heck yes.
In other notes, I found my old Three Hour Diet book for Teens from High School. It has a lot of really good visualization ideas that I wanted to look back at. I think talking the time once a day to sit down and really think about how your body is changing and how amazing you feel from exercising and then how awesome it will to be a healthy weight again, it's really good for you! Positive vibes!
Well in the book when I started that diet (for like 5 days) in HS, I weighed 194. I found this really exciting! I can't wait until I'm down below that point! I was a sophomore in HS and weighed that much. Now as a 3rd year college student, I'm going to weigh less than that soon!
I'm soo pumped about my life changes! I'm running/walking every other day now and walking the same distance on days I don't run/walk. I'm doing the Richard Simmons tape 6 days a week (though I didn't last night because I ran out of time with putting all the Ikea furniture together). And I have so much more energy and strength I didn't have before! I'm even more flexible! I can do the butterfly stretch and put my forearms on the ground next to my feet. It feels AMAZING.
And I just have to remind myself, even on the not so great days, when the scale doesn't budge and I eat half a Ritter Sport bar or decide I can't dance, I'm still amazing! I'm doing so much good for myself.
One last mention. My clothes are starting to be really loose. I can practically shank myself in my jeans nowadays where before there were days when it was a struggled to pull them up. Even my pj shorts are super loose. Amazing :D
Also, did I mention I was down to 213 this (Saturday) morning?
Heck yes.
In other notes, I found my old Three Hour Diet book for Teens from High School. It has a lot of really good visualization ideas that I wanted to look back at. I think talking the time once a day to sit down and really think about how your body is changing and how amazing you feel from exercising and then how awesome it will to be a healthy weight again, it's really good for you! Positive vibes!
Well in the book when I started that diet (for like 5 days) in HS, I weighed 194. I found this really exciting! I can't wait until I'm down below that point! I was a sophomore in HS and weighed that much. Now as a 3rd year college student, I'm going to weigh less than that soon!
I'm soo pumped about my life changes! I'm running/walking every other day now and walking the same distance on days I don't run/walk. I'm doing the Richard Simmons tape 6 days a week (though I didn't last night because I ran out of time with putting all the Ikea furniture together). And I have so much more energy and strength I didn't have before! I'm even more flexible! I can do the butterfly stretch and put my forearms on the ground next to my feet. It feels AMAZING.
And I just have to remind myself, even on the not so great days, when the scale doesn't budge and I eat half a Ritter Sport bar or decide I can't dance, I'm still amazing! I'm doing so much good for myself.
One last mention. My clothes are starting to be really loose. I can practically shank myself in my jeans nowadays where before there were days when it was a struggled to pull them up. Even my pj shorts are super loose. Amazing :D
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Dear Blog
Dear Blog,
I've been avoiding you lately. I've been flat-out avoiding the computer lately. I don't know what this is about, besides been crazy busy every single day.
The short of it: I lost roughly 8 lbs doing the Special K Challenge.
I'm not going to change my diet extravagantly far from the Special K Challenge for the future. Just replacing the cereal or bar meals with small, healthy meals with lots of fruit and veggies.
I haven't been running lately. I'm still trying to walk every day. I did today, plus some weight exercises for arms on the balance ball. And then C wanted to do a Richard Simmons tape, so I did that too! And then I sat on the balance ball and wiggled and bounced around forever. I just had the jitter bug today and needed to dance it out.
Speaking of that, today was a good day. I danced in the car. I walked with M and entertained her with my crazy awful dancing. I bought two new tops today and some lounge pants at Rue 21. I wore one of the new tops right after buying it and C told me I looked soo skinny. That comment just like reminded me of all the hard work I've been putting in recently.
And yeah, the scale read 218 tonight. That's seriously down 10 lbs from where I started (and down 16 lbs from my highest)! How exciting!
I can do this you guys! :D
I've been avoiding you lately. I've been flat-out avoiding the computer lately. I don't know what this is about, besides been crazy busy every single day.
The short of it: I lost roughly 8 lbs doing the Special K Challenge.
I'm not going to change my diet extravagantly far from the Special K Challenge for the future. Just replacing the cereal or bar meals with small, healthy meals with lots of fruit and veggies.
I haven't been running lately. I'm still trying to walk every day. I did today, plus some weight exercises for arms on the balance ball. And then C wanted to do a Richard Simmons tape, so I did that too! And then I sat on the balance ball and wiggled and bounced around forever. I just had the jitter bug today and needed to dance it out.
Speaking of that, today was a good day. I danced in the car. I walked with M and entertained her with my crazy awful dancing. I bought two new tops today and some lounge pants at Rue 21. I wore one of the new tops right after buying it and C told me I looked soo skinny. That comment just like reminded me of all the hard work I've been putting in recently.
And yeah, the scale read 218 tonight. That's seriously down 10 lbs from where I started (and down 16 lbs from my highest)! How exciting!
I can do this you guys! :D
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Day 5
Is it really even Day 5? I don't feel like I've been doing this forever anymore, lols. And I'm not hungry all the time! My stomach isn't alerting me 30 mins before ever scheduled eating. I swear all I thought about the other day was food, when and what I was eating, how to prepare it, how many calories was in it. And now it's more like natural and less emotional probably. I mean I know I'm an emotional eater. It started during Jr High and has just continued with me through life so far. Now that I'm thinking about what I eat and why I want to eat things, it's become so much more clear to me why I was so unhealthy and gained so much weight.
Breakfast/snack - SK chocolate peanut butter snack bar, banana
Lunch - Sweet Tomatoes, small serving of cold pasta with tomatoes, kidney beans, olives, and regular ranch dressing (such a splurge I know), small side of ceasar salad, small side of potato salad, a couple spoonfuls of Buffalo Chicken soup and Pinto Basil soup, 1/3 cup macaroni and cheese, 1 low-fat cornbread muffin, 1 pralin crunch muffin (omg this was sooo tasty, I could have eaten another one!)
Snack - Skinny Cow Peanut Butter Ice Cream Sannich (this was alright, I wish I would have bought the mint ones instead, M insisted on the peanut butter ones)
Dinner - SK Chocolate, 1/2 cup Greek Yoghurt, 1 peach
Snack - WATERMELON!
Lunch sounds like it was a lot but it was a lot of little bits of this and that. Normally at Sweet Tomatoes I tend to eat a lot of all my favorite things and leave the place feeling over-stuffed. Today I put things on my plate more sensible. Tried the soups and stopped eating them when I didn't particularly care for them. The mac'n'cheese was a splurge just because I love their's. Also, the praline crunch muffin apparently has 250 calories in it (I checked the website), it was sooo tasty but I'm not entirely sure if it was worth that much.
I'm trying to do the stop-when-you-feel-full and leave some left on the plate mentality. I've always been one to clean my plate whether or not I was full 10 bites ago. This isn't particularly healthy. I'm starting to realize that this is really bad and why I used to eat so much food. It's a whole mind change for eating, but I'm really trying to stick to it now! I read this earlier from a website and thought it fit perfectly:
"Do you stop when you're full?
Many people still have a "clean your plate" mentality. You will have much more energy and feel less tired if you only eat as much food as your body needs. Think of it this way--you don't continue to fill your car with gas when the tank is full, so why would you do it to your body?"
A note about dinner: SK Chocolate was terrible! I'm not one to like cornflake cereal (even though I love it with the strawberry twist), and that's what it was! With little pieces of pretend chocolate thrown in. I poured my bowl and saw all the little chocolate piece fall into my bowl looking all decadent. I'm still a fat kid at heart so I snatched one up to eat it and...it was like a little pad of subtlety chocolate flavoured crisco. Ugh! Well I still ate it with my greek yoghurt for dinner, although I doubt I will be eating it again. It might be better with milk, but I hate eating cereal with milk (I won't eat cereal once it loses its crisp factor). And since I'm trying to eat more slowly (and listen to my body when it says its full), I doubt I'll finish the box. Le sigh.
About the running: I expected it to be all kinds of hot and muggy outside like it was all day today (M, C and I went out shopping and I bought nail polish!). We're even under an air quality alert but I knew I had to go out running anyway. I went out and it wasn't bad at all; it had just started cooling off out. I ran slightly more than yesterday AND I covered more distance. I would have run more but my lower stomach/intestines area started hurting (not like a cramp but hurting nonetheless), so I just briskly walked the last half of the return trip.
I even saw interesting things during my run! I saw (1) walking lady; she was behind me when we started and I saw her again when we crossed on my return trip, (2) mallard ducks; okay these aren't all that interesting because they hang out in our yard all the time. My favourite thing to do is get in their space, they quack if you're within a 15 ft radius of them! (3) tractors in operation, and (1) red cardinal. Fun times! :D
I can't wait to cut into that watermelon! I'm also excited about making watermelon rind pickles! It's a southern classic! My grandmother (who passed away) used to make them and I LOVED eating them at her house. Now I'm going to make my own!
Bob
Breakfast/snack - SK chocolate peanut butter snack bar, banana
Lunch - Sweet Tomatoes, small serving of cold pasta with tomatoes, kidney beans, olives, and regular ranch dressing (such a splurge I know), small side of ceasar salad, small side of potato salad, a couple spoonfuls of Buffalo Chicken soup and Pinto Basil soup, 1/3 cup macaroni and cheese, 1 low-fat cornbread muffin, 1 pralin crunch muffin (omg this was sooo tasty, I could have eaten another one!)
Snack - Skinny Cow Peanut Butter Ice Cream Sannich (this was alright, I wish I would have bought the mint ones instead, M insisted on the peanut butter ones)
Dinner - SK Chocolate, 1/2 cup Greek Yoghurt, 1 peach
Snack - WATERMELON!
Lunch sounds like it was a lot but it was a lot of little bits of this and that. Normally at Sweet Tomatoes I tend to eat a lot of all my favorite things and leave the place feeling over-stuffed. Today I put things on my plate more sensible. Tried the soups and stopped eating them when I didn't particularly care for them. The mac'n'cheese was a splurge just because I love their's. Also, the praline crunch muffin apparently has 250 calories in it (I checked the website), it was sooo tasty but I'm not entirely sure if it was worth that much.
I'm trying to do the stop-when-you-feel-full and leave some left on the plate mentality. I've always been one to clean my plate whether or not I was full 10 bites ago. This isn't particularly healthy. I'm starting to realize that this is really bad and why I used to eat so much food. It's a whole mind change for eating, but I'm really trying to stick to it now! I read this earlier from a website and thought it fit perfectly:
"Do you stop when you're full?
Many people still have a "clean your plate" mentality. You will have much more energy and feel less tired if you only eat as much food as your body needs. Think of it this way--you don't continue to fill your car with gas when the tank is full, so why would you do it to your body?"
A note about dinner: SK Chocolate was terrible! I'm not one to like cornflake cereal (even though I love it with the strawberry twist), and that's what it was! With little pieces of pretend chocolate thrown in. I poured my bowl and saw all the little chocolate piece fall into my bowl looking all decadent. I'm still a fat kid at heart so I snatched one up to eat it and...it was like a little pad of subtlety chocolate flavoured crisco. Ugh! Well I still ate it with my greek yoghurt for dinner, although I doubt I will be eating it again. It might be better with milk, but I hate eating cereal with milk (I won't eat cereal once it loses its crisp factor). And since I'm trying to eat more slowly (and listen to my body when it says its full), I doubt I'll finish the box. Le sigh.
About the running: I expected it to be all kinds of hot and muggy outside like it was all day today (M, C and I went out shopping and I bought nail polish!). We're even under an air quality alert but I knew I had to go out running anyway. I went out and it wasn't bad at all; it had just started cooling off out. I ran slightly more than yesterday AND I covered more distance. I would have run more but my lower stomach/intestines area started hurting (not like a cramp but hurting nonetheless), so I just briskly walked the last half of the return trip.
I even saw interesting things during my run! I saw (1) walking lady; she was behind me when we started and I saw her again when we crossed on my return trip, (2) mallard ducks; okay these aren't all that interesting because they hang out in our yard all the time. My favourite thing to do is get in their space, they quack if you're within a 15 ft radius of them! (3) tractors in operation, and (1) red cardinal. Fun times! :D
I can't wait to cut into that watermelon! I'm also excited about making watermelon rind pickles! It's a southern classic! My grandmother (who passed away) used to make them and I LOVED eating them at her house. Now I'm going to make my own!
Bob
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